I am feeling socially awkward today. Or, as you who know me would call it, "normal."
I had a meeting this morning at a private residence on campus, about a garden. Since I wasn't positive how to get there, I was early. However, there was not a car in sight, so I waited in mine to see when people arrived. No one came. I called the office and was told that people were at the meeting. I drove around and saw a car, but no people, and no one had gone in the front door. So, I parked nearby and lurked some more. Finally, 10 minutes after the meeting was supposed to start, I saw another car and just said, to hell with it, I am going in. I saw someone disappearing over a hill and followed her, all the while worried about being accused of trespassing.
Turns out the meeting was in the back yard, behind a 6 foot fence, and around some 30 foot tall bushes. And I was 10 minutes late. I was angry and embarrassed. Awkward.
See, this is why I wanted to move to the country - so I could be a hermit and avoid all these strange, peopley gatherings.
But then I get lonely and decide I need to make friends. Which leads to more awkward. Although, in my defense (to myself, since I think I am most critical of myself), I have been making inroads meeting people. I am trying. And when it gets awkward, I can always run back to my slice of heaven and hide in the woods.